If It Exists, Reject It First

Reality Is so unappealing Lie to me And say that you know the feeling Feed the delusions For my amusement I've already lost it So what am I still scared of losing Every sign that there's more to life Was correlated loosely Life doesn't choose me Do I choose it? I'm not useless I'm just convincing When I tell myself that I know the feeling It does exist It doesn't exist I do exist I don't exist I'm a tree in this Forrest That you either can't hear falling or choose to ignore it I am trying... Believe it or not, I am trying It's still useless