IF I'M GONE

Right now life is sort of shit Makes a guy wanna call it quits Same shit over and over, I'm so bored of it Demotivation has taken over as I'm pouring this Rampant thought of what it'd be like to pull the trigger or get the knife Would my departure bring my loved ones a better life? And would I no more feel like the rejected type? Who's always sad who's become the man who hardly slept at night Because he feels as if he has no purpose to fulfill No person who needs him and who's presence they'll miss On any basis Night or day How different would it be with some permanent time away? I don't really contribute to anyone's life nor make their day anyway so my souls departure is all that's left As curious as I am I'm also still afraid to go because I still want so much more before my death