If I Don't Wake Up Tomarrow-1

Are you surprised? I couldn't even look you in the eyes, when I said I'd stop. It was just a matter of time. Like the ticking of a clock. It was gonna happen at some point. Scarring my hand, at the joint. And, honestly I'm sorry. It wasn't something that I planned. I almost can't control my hand. Auto pilot, I could keep fighting. But it's so hard. Don't restart my heart. If I, don't wake up, tomorrow... please don't miss me. It really wasn't your fault, that, I hope you see. Light was just so hard to find. I wish I'd been born with a working mind. If I don't wake up tomorrow... Give my lungs to someone who can use it. My heart to someone who won't bruise it. Really, anything you can use. After all, I'd have nothing left to lose. Burn the the rest, and throw the ashes into the sea. That'd mean a lot to me. If I don't wake up tomarrow.. Please don't make it a big deal. Making it official, makes it real. I don't think anyone would miss me. There are so many things, I wanted to be. Now they won't happen. When you think of me, I want you laughing. If I don't wake up tomarrow.. Just know, that I felt like a waste of space. I hated my body, and my face. I'll give my share, of air, to some else. Someo