If I die young (a thought)

I've been suffering in silence Too afraid to ask for help I thought no one could help me When I clearly couldn't help myself Sure I was forever smiling But inside I was hella sad I felt trapped in my own body Screaming to be let out on the inside I didn't want to be me With such a complicated life How I hate myself I really hate my life I don't like anything about myself I'm weak together with my mentality I let myself fall apart I don't even try to hold myself together I just let it be Burying myself before my own funeral Waving goodbye to my future I don't wanna be any part of it