idkn I'm lost

"God could only dry my tears, God can only knows what's best for me what makes me feel at peace and happy, my lord knows my pain knows our pain our Lord knows our sins and smells from sins, I don't want a relationship I don't know what I want I don't want to be around so many people I feel so many fake vibes from everyone God made me feel alive God made me feel less dead, he's my water who waters a rose like me he's my savior and lover our lover and savior and our plants that's meant to grow and have be carried by him no matter what we are his special plants that doesn't suits anything evil but pure forgiveness and kindness and positivity."