idk anymore

I cant eat anymore I feel sick when I do, I can't sleep without nightmares, I stopped going out with people I don't want to talk to anyone, I stopped taking care of myself I don't do my makeup or my hair, I don't put work into my outfits, I keep cry for no reason, I started drinking and smoking tbh I'd rather be drunk or high than think about stuff, I started haunting myself again not a lot but enough.