IDK

I'm spinning while being motionless I'm crying and my heart is broken but I'm emotionless I'm in a crowd of thousands all screaming but I can't see any one it's a is if I'm dreaming it's like I'm in the middle of a busy street with thousands of cars but there's no vehicle in sight just my body which is covered in scars how is it possible that I feel everything and at the same time I feel nothing I don't know