I'd never be able to tell you

You said I deserved better But I don’t want better I wanted you to be better But you couldn't That doesn’t stop me from hoping That maybe it’s not over yet That we might do this again But I do know it would rip my heart out To feel like that again To feel invisible and unheard To make excuses for you And why you weren’t there It would rip my heart out To start trusting again To share things I don’t speak aloud It would rip my heart out And my heart is weary now And slowly healing And I can’t hurt myself again By letting myself want So we must part ways For real this time I will miss you But not enough to come back