I wonder

I wonder if my mom is still scared If she still remembers the scars on my wrists Or the sheets with blood on them Or the christmas I almost left forever I wonder if when her friends son killed himself She saw me in him Or when her best friend dad shot himself She talked to her about her experience I wonder if I remind my dad of his best friend When he got his stomach pumped I wonder if I remind my brother of himself I wonder if my friends look at my arms like they did that day Or if my grandma wishes she would've talked to me So, if you read this, do you?