I Wished I Had A Choice

I know I've found a way to carry on.But that doesn't mean my hearts not broken.The shattered peices still lay upon the floor.There's a smile I paint across my face. But theres a pain that's hidden within So many tears still fall upon my pillow. I will never truly move on. I will carry the memories with me every day. How can I forget all that I have lost. Many people ask how i do it But I was never given the chance to choose. That decision was never in my hands. I'm forever holding back the tears. The memories live deep inside my heart. While the pain of loss lives within mind. Losing someone you love so dearly. Has this everlasting effect upon your soul, It leaves a scar within you that will never heal. You're always hoping for one more day. Another chance to hug them tightly, To whisper I love you within their ear, I live with this pain every time I open my eyes. But I know they'd want me to live my life. So I guess I'm granting them one last wish, I'll live my life while holding unto their memory. Because if I'm still here to remember them. Then they've never truly gone away. I WISH I HAD THE CHOICE