I wish to die💔

I'm thinking of committing suicide. It's not like they would care anyway. I don't why God put me aside. Cause I no longer want to stay. They blame me for every sack. I can't keep quiet anymore. I wish the earth could turn black. Maybe that's when I'll finally score. When I'm all alone it seems peaceful. But when I'm around family I want be in my room. It doesn't scream at me it's so hopeful. That maybe one day I won't be a broom. All they want to do is sweep the floor. Not knowing anything at all. If only my life could end with a door. I would have stepped in non reluctant to fall. My life would be better with the Lord. I wish to go to him I'm tired. I know he wouldn't stab my heart with a sword. I just want to go so no one gets me fired.