I wish I had it in me

I wished I could tell you how much you truly mean to me But when I actually had the chance ,I had let you go from my heart as if you were a cliff that I desperately held onto until one day I let go and fell into the deep abyss we both used to somehow match imperfectly and now though we have a lot in common and my heart from one of it's desolate cracks still calls your name ,I have let you go nonchalantly My obstinate nature covers my true feelings from myself too like an ever still fog I still love you Even though my own heart sometimes denies it too