i wish

i wish i never knew you i wish i never talked to you i wish we never smiled at each other i wish we never texted i wish you never flirted with me i wish you never said you loved me i wish you never lied to me i wish i never loved you i wish you weren't my first everything i wish you never used me i wish you never cheated i wish you never left me i wish so many things but i know I'm just lying to myself because... before i knew you i never felt like myself before i knew you i was alway upset and insecure everytime we talked or texted i felt happy, loved and safe with you i hate that i still love you and that I can't hate you for what you did to me...