I want...

I want to be who you want me to be But I can't I'm gonna mess up again I want to sleep at night but then I'll thinking of her I want to see clearly but everything is a blur I want to not screw up but I'm a fuck up I want to grow and do the things I once dreamed of but I again I entertain Death with my attention I want to say all of this but I'm not that strong I'm sorry