i wanna

I wanna know you more, please keep talking because I want more. Don't leave me like this, I want to hear your voice. Don't go away from me, you make me happy every day. I know you think I don't feel anything, but you don't know that I'm a master of pretending, because I started to love you but my past hurts asks me to be wary of my feelings. I try to give you everything of me, but I don't have everything anymore,and it’s all that I have left that I give you. Of course I know my mood swings are hurting you, all I want is God to bless, Bless you. There are many things I want from life, but the most important thing is that I want you in my life. This pride that hides these insecurities makes me lose the man I want for eternity. what makes me happy is your smile. what makes me unhappy is that I make you suffer. you asked me if I was okay, I said yes, I had to practice lying to you like that. because the truth is... I miss you; I miss your smile; I miss talking to you; but you see… I would never tell you I will never show you because my heart loves you for real, but my brain loves you from afar.