I waited..

I waited for things to get better.... And i waited for a long ass time.... You kissed my lips and swore to me that you'd never hate me...now i know you were only lying again... Knowing what was to come in our future..we played pretend...numbing our feelings till there was nothing to numb with once again.... U thought you were way too energetic and giving so you slowed yourself down...when i heard your voice tell me everything once again...i almost broke down.. Knowing this couldn't be real again...man it broke my heart... because you were the first guy I'd ever loved knowing it would completely fall apart...Man i told you what happened while you were gone..even told you about that brown eyed boy I used to talk to.. i told you about the feelings...you giggled at me.... I remember your remarks...i knew deep down i was waiting for your comedy to kick in with me again..and it did so i could only help but know i grew from it....And i don't think were ready right now...so i won't show up yet... I'll wait for a little while longer...just know...i'll still wait. Even when my shadows start to drown me out again... I'll keep waiting for you.