I struggle to breathe

when the silences seems to loud and I can't hear a sound endless thoughts flood my mind and haunt me eternally am I good enough who loves me for me am I forgettable am I meant to feel hated for who I am is unrecognisable and then I get told I change when all I do is hide my little sunshine for whom I was is gone for I have lost my song and I wish I could still live with it but then it's burned to the ground who am I meant to be confusion sets in my tears fill my eyes endlessly but who am I?