I still feel too much

Today I woke up feeling what I thought I'd never feel again. The love that I thought was dead continues to beat. I think about your wait to see me arrive, those eyes that avoided seeing me and that friendly beginning. I'm not going to forget your look, your laugh or when you didn't want me to hold your hand... I swear it was inertia, it's not that I wanted to make physical contact with the person I longed to feel close to.. I still remember my heart beating hard when you were inches away due to the rain, harder when you finally hugged me and I felt your heartbeat... and even harder when you came closer. Your kisses are exactly what I expected them to still be, your smell was still the same and your skin was softer than ever. It's annoying to stay in love and have it not reciprocated. I wonder if one day what I feel for this person will be replicated in another person who does reciprocate. I wonder if I was born to love you, because I can't stop seeing you in the eyes of others, no matter how hard I try, I can't stop loving you and begging God to give me a chance or to take you out of my life forever. why do I love like this? why do I love YOU like this? and why don't you love me?