I should stop talking.

I love talking. But I hate the words that come out of my mouth. They are meaningless. They are the translation of my envy to be accepted in this society that makes me feel like an outsider. Every sentence doesn't mean anything. They are meant to communicate at the lowest level possible. I want to reach a point of intimacy with the person I'm talking to where we don't need all my useless chit chat. I hate talking. yet I have this desire to enter a resonance with everyone. I hate myself for telling people useless bullshit. Because yes our daily lives are boring and useless and meaningless what isn't is why we are here. Why are you here today. how are you doing. its all that really matters. Yet to answer that we need to be honest and vulnerable and we aren't. So lets talk about the weather its easier boring and a really good way to avoid any potential akward or cringe moments. Even thoug cringe or akward doesn't exist it is just a simple waycto avoid an honnesty with yourselves on that note I should shut up