I see you, mother

When I was little, I heard it all The roars of your lovers, and the pain in your voice you always loved the people who didn't see you. "you don't know anything Marley" but I did.. I saw you crying in the dark getting high and drunk to rid the pain I watched you everyday. We never had a healthy bond It all hurt How I saw through your everyday act so easily. " You don't see everything, that's why you're so angry with me." I am not angry, mother... Your eyes are filled with pain. Anger. Hatred. Their dulled colors glisten bearing pain And your forced smile always made me frown. Your forced smile is seen so easily Your real one though, is a night sky, beautiful. the saddened veins that pulse on your head they were the quickest indication. " Marley, you don't know what I've gone through." But I do, mother You've told me your story plenty Each time showing me your pain and each time I listened. I know you thought I hated you That I didn't want to be around you. that's not the truth.. I didn't want to be around because no kid wants the gift of seeing through their parents' facade. I didn't want to hang out with you A lot because I remember I hurt you too. All I wanted was too feel loved by you.