i riped off the band aid

i riped of my band aid today. it was painful. It hurt. but a scar heals faster once its out in the air. so I tore it. it pulled my skin and it was on my scar for way to long. im not sure I even needed it anymore. it was more to hide my scar then for it to heal. but a scar heals faster once its out in the air. maybe it was to hide it from me. if I can't see my scar I can't see im hurting. but today I pulled it off. and it felt lighter because I finally took it off. i finally saw my scar for what seem like years. i realized it was there. and it was part of me. so here I am with it. and I am not, without it. I won't put a band aid on it anymore. because taking it off would hurt. or maybe because my scar isn't a scar yet. it needs to heal out in the air before it becomes one. It needs time to heal too.