I remember..?

"I remember I remember when it all began Began in a strange way like rain turning into a storm I remember that carelessness that violated my body and mind Or maybe it was... me who caused harm to him? I remember... but what do I remember Every night I fall asleep thinking of him I remember his hair... his hugs... I remember... but what do I remember... Of that storm that shattered our continuum and took us far away... I don't remember anything anymore... I've forgotten now... I've forgotten the pain, the fear, and the unhappiness I caused... but why did I forget?... Sometimes I cry, I cry and I want to return to that fleeting carefreeness, return to that time when nothing had been done and when I didn't cry... and when I didn't hate myself..."