I reflect

This last half of 2023 has been hard There have been a lot of tears a lot of emptiness and so I reflect on me I reflect on my past the pain that broke me that molded me that made me into this guilt ridden, emotional person And so I cry and I cry cause I don't know how to fix what was broken I don't know how glue the piece back to make me whole again I try but the pieces fall apart I reflect because what brings me peace? what makes the voice in head speechless? What have I done to deserve this? I was a child and I didn't have anyone to protect me and now as an adult Im fighting to protect me cause they wouldn't, they couldnt Family just sat by and let it happen And so I reflect and I reflect until it builds up leaving me still leaving my inner child begging for love and I say to my little self don't worry, I'm here and no one will hurt you like they all did