I question myself

You look at her even though I'm right by your side she makes you smile without any efforts and here I'm... doing all I can to make you happy I often question myself "Am I not worthy?" or its just that we both were never meant to be!! You're the only person I search for when I feel miserable but I fail to convence myself that you're the reason for my misery and again I question myself "can I call a person my home who is the reason behind all my misery?" It hurts so bad holding on to this but isn't it funny I still can't let you go you break my heart into thousand of pieces but each night I find myself fixing it with all the good times I spent with you but somehow this time I couldn't find anything that could fix those broken pieces not even those good old times because I started fearing of loosing myself more than loosing him now each broken pieces of my heart shouted at me to stop and I questioned myself for the final time.. "Will you be okay?" after all this questions for the first time I finally got my answer "Yes" with the tears rolling down my face.....