I Only Know Love As Pain

You raised me a monster You never taught me to love You never held my hand You never tried to make me happy You never failed to make me cry You never let them know You never asked if I was ok You never really cared And I never said a thing I always thought it was love I always thought there was a reason I always hoped you would help me I always wanted you to be proud of me I always tried my best I always felt worthless around you I always felt pain when you were there Now I only know love as pain... I always wished you cared