I not depressed 😊

I m not even sad, all the time. I laugh , I talk, I show up. And most days... i seem perfectly fine. But deep down... I know Something inside me has changed. life took something from me. maybe a part of my spirit.... maybe the version of me .... who still believed good things always last..... Whatever it was.., It's gone.... And because of that.... my smile doesn't shine the way..... it's used to there is no light behind it anymore just habit people think I m okay because I look okay but they didn't hear the noise in my head they don't feel the weight I carry in silence it's not that I'm broken i still function but I'm not the same And some night. I wonder if I'll ever feel like that old version of me the one who didn't flinch at love the one who still has hope........