I need to throw up my feelings

I'm sick. I'm choking on my feelings. They are too many and way stronger than I can hangle it. I need to puke. They are so violent they disgust me. Anything please let my thoughts get away. " I am too much. I am ugly. I am dumb. I am not enough. I am disorganized. I am unlovable. I suck at writing. I suck at everything I try. " Tears swell. Thoughts fill me up to the brink. oh no. I'm starting to believe them. My body walters. My heart cracks. I lose myself somewhere in those thoughts. too late. I became them.