I need help

I wish could run away and hide away from all the pain that's building up inside you say what's wrong and I tell you I'm fine but behind my smile I'm secretly crying you say you can tell me everything I say it's nothing ( I continue lying ) all of your efforts to save me are in vain because I'm drowning in a never ending ocean of pain replaying my worst memories over and over again forced to relive them every single night thinking about all I've done wrong and what I could have done right every single night haunted by my past it's like I'm in a horror movie and I'm forced to be the cast anxiety creeping in my mind is beginning to cave in my eyes erupt with tears overflowing with depression my body's breaking down from all of this oppression stress weighing down on my like a thousands pounds but if I searched for why I feel this way no answer will be found i wish to sleep and never wake up again because I'm tired of always being in overwhelming pain