I miss you

Your eyes they would sparkle But now im not the reason they do Been trying push thru But winters been killing my mood We never made it to December Like we said You look so good alone So I would rather you live without me I see u at school everyday And it hurts everytime The fact I won't be ur new years kiss So tell me why iam holding onto our memories I've been drowning in the bottle Trying to numb my emotions Breaking down in class Whil3 tears run down my face No one even cares I'm bleeding out while they just stare I feel like everytime i try and speak it's a fucking cry I get high and drunk to not think about you