I miss you

My dear Alouishis, my heart breaks at the thought of you. I miss your fur. and everything about you. I miss your meow and rubbing between your ears. I miss how I'd talk and you'd sit and listen, for years, we were always together. I never let you go until I and to, and now I know. I know what it feels like to have your child ripped away. for someone to take you, and make me suffer the pain. I miss how you'd comfort me every time I cried. Especially when moms stupid husband made me want to die. I write you letters, ones you could never read. I do it to cope without you here with me. I miss being excited to go home from school, knowing you'd be waiting for me right by the door. but now I'm not excited, I never want to be home because mom's new boyfriend never leaves me alone. I can't hide in my room, then he'll make me come down. I have no one to hold me. It makes me want to drown. I try and block out the noise of all the stress around me. My father is in another state, and honestly, I'm suffering. I miss your loving purr. I miss when you were mine. But now you're gone with someone else, your siblings intertwined. All three of you, Alouishis, pepper, and tipper. I miss your little paws, I miss you all.