I miss him and I miss us

I miss you laughing to my stupid jokes . I miss you doing fun things for me. I miss how you used to look proud every time you and I walked beside each other. I miss how you used to look at me all the time I miss all the times you used to hold me no matter who was around 💔 I miss your kisses your touch the way you made me feel the love you say you love me but in all true reality don't miss you I miss the old you the one that tripped me and I fell for I miss us before all the wishers in our ears before you started to listen and began to change to this new you which I don't even know who are you and where did you leave him where did he go please tell me where is he no matter where he is I'll go where ever he is what you do with him tell me please let me know I need him back please please let me know where can I find him I miss him and I miss us please please I'm slowly dying I can't go much more with out him I miss him I'm lost with out him and us please please I need to know where do you have him and where do I go I miss him I miss us with out him I don't think I can go on please I need to find him because I'm just holding on by a thread of life because I miss him I'm almost completely dead