I messed up

This might be wierd, but I still miss you . I've been keeping track of the time we've went without talking. I know it's been 7 months but I truly miss you. Losing you broke my heart but what hurt even more is knowing that it's my fault. I miss the times we texted. If I ever could I hope I could get a chance to apologize. I want to change but I know you don't like me, clearly. I'll be here for when you want to be friends again. I wish we could just forget this pain. I messed up so badly, I really regret it. I miss your un-funny jokes I miss everything about you. I've always been told "with time everything will work out" I know that's not true. I wonder if you will ever know how much I miss you.