I love you but I hate you

Oh! how I love you! the sunset on the beach, such a view, A gentle breeze in the wind, it feels new, a warm hug from behind, Gosh I thought of you. You're everything good combined the mere thought of you, fills my mind the warmth, the love, I must find but I hate it, cause I know you're not mine. I hate you, just go and hide. let me face my own raging tides you're with her, but why can't she just die and be with me, so we can enjoy our life I love you, I hate you, I'm so confused I'm like a bomb, someone light my fuse blow me up, shatter me like I'm no use you charmed me, loved me, but it was all just a ruse.