I love you

After every greeting , "every morning" "afternoon" and "goodnight" , I seem to find myself with an internal fight , barely noticing my fingers type : "okey , I love you" only for the reality to shine through , the Realization and embarrassment followed by sadness I love him alot and I hope he does too. I hate the feeling , of being left , in sights of blue , I wonder if he loves me and whether he wants to say it too? But then I remind myself of us too What we do and what we've done , Stupid misunderstandings and giggled some. I want to say I love you , every single time But I realize that , he is not mine. I'm nervous of you wanting to read what I've written , in the fear of misunderstandings or accidentally making things different If you were to read this , I'm sorry my love , I love you alot , I wish to forever be your dove