I lost..

it was the very first page when my efforts turned waste., always showed the best smile knowing my happiness was away Miles, tried the best,never got the rest, lost everything I had.., I am going mad..,when everything turned waste!! I lost they pointed it out.. treating me as a shit.. and I knew I was good for nothing.. and all I knew was I lost.. note: I am sorry it's my first ever poem..sorry if you didn't like it am just 15yrs old now I will try harder next time..thank you for reading.