I knew

I knew this would happen that our world collapses and we fail to keep it together I knew the day would come where sunny days will feel so cold because we can no longer grow old it's just so hard to imagine and it's my fault you can't cope I don't know why I can't be happy and joyous for long maybe my hands are too weak to contain and hold every time I do I'd mess up to a point where I fall and can't get up suicidal thoughts all over my head trying to fight the demons colliding in my head I knew someday, my love will turn, and I'm left with just a trace of the dove I once held in hand can't these voices shut down already in myself, I've drowned but I can't say I never knew