i hope it burns

i hope the world burns sometimes i wish it stopped spinning i wish it burned with me in it, i wish it didn't feel this way. I often spend sleepless nights trying to decipher the deeper meanings behind everything. although i don't truly believe there is one why are we here, there's nothing stopping us all from just dying one day any. second lives can turn upside down or just end so what's the point of it all? why cant the world just burn, and why cant i burn with it