i hide my love from you

The love i have for you is so heavy i want to let go make it over but the pain i feel holds all of it back. i want to put my arms around you and hug you like no tomorrow. i want to cuddle with you each and ever night. i wanted to be the first person to see your face with your beautiful smile. My life would be alot a wreck by now and you know this too but i don't want to get hurt by you. so i hide my love. i try to get closer to you more and more so my heart can get back comfortable with you. so i can do the things we love ❤️ but i am afraid of getting hurt so i hide my love from you , my love for you is heavy with alot of pain but you make it clear to me that everyone is not the same