i have so much anxiety

Lately it feels like I have so much anxiety; I won't sit in the dark no longer to suffer silently; Another day on this world I see only violence; Which gets drowned deep down by the silence; You may clip my wings and i begin to fall; Just know the days are darkening and I don't care at all; I used to hate everything that I saw inside me of the mirror; Now I am here I can finally see everything clearer; It's hard to smile when life is hard, I can't even cry; You may take my wings but yet I'll always smiles and fly; Sorry everyone in my life, I don't think I'mma see tomorrow; No matter what happens, don't cry for me or ever sorrow; I know life is hard but I struggle with a broken heart; No matter what I still care for those who left me torn apart; It feels like Atlas dropped the world on my shoulders; It weighs way more than the heaviest boulders; When i was younger i used to pretend i didn't feel the pain; I used to pretend it didn't hurt when i was abandoned, heartbroken, or had poison in my veins; I'm not Mr. Niceguy, but to a lot of people I'm just the devil; I'm sorry but i refuse to die, I'm on my own level;