I have done nothing worth

I am here but still very far from you the gap had widened the clashes has increased my tone has gone high my temper seens to be increased i wanted others to hear me my own people don't want me i am rude to all of you why should someone face all the temper that i go throw I was unavailable when my child was praised by her teacher I was unavailable when my son wanted a partner to play I was unavailable when he got hurt i was unavailable his progress day I am blamed for not attending the meeting I am blamed for not giving time to family I am blamed for coming home late wasting money when not needed I am blamed when i buy dress of my choice I am blamed when i take an hour more rest I am blamed for not earning morey my wife thinks herself as my slave My colleagues feel i am careless can't see mistakes i have committed made fun of me made mockery of me when i tried to correct the mistakes i was arrogant hurted their feelings i keep scoulding for no reason I am wrong for all reasons I don't know how to teach don't know how to motivate don't know how to speak my choice is always wrong i haven't done anything in my life