I have a feeling

There people I hold dear There are places I hold dear But non are as dear to me as you were Now that I look at you You blend in the crowd Your light diminished You were my friend My favorite person of all Now you are like the rest I wonder what happened Was it me Was it my lack of self love I wonder what led to it To you speaking behind my back Taking my work Ignoring my calls, my ideas What made you think They are not a person A person to listen to To work with To talk to A person that is not person in your eyes I have feeling you raised higher And then fell into the bottomless pit You think you are heaven filled with clouds Yet you say you are hell with the devil You think you are perfect Yet you say if you were different you would be I have feeling your ego raised Now you are just like the rest of us In the bottomless pit Drowning I wonder who was the first to fall You or me But I have a feeling it was you