I hate you

I hate the way you think about yourself. I hate that you live so far away from me. I hate that I want to say so much, but don't know if it destroys our friendship. I hate that I think about you almost the whole day, even though you probably don't think about me at all. I hate how badly want to hug you. I hate the way you smell, talk, walk and feel. I hate the stupid songs you hear, it made me listen to them secretly. I hate that I saved so many videos and pics, thinking about you, though you probaly won't even think the same. I hate that you will probably love someone more than me. But the most important reason why I hate you is, I don't even hate you at all. I don't hate you, not even slightly. It's just the fear, that you will find someone better than me and leave me.