i hate my life

I feel lost I hate my life Every day feels heavy Like carrying invisible stones in my chest I wake up tired Move through the day without meaning And at night, I lie awake Counting every mistake, every regret People laugh and smile But I feel nothing Even my own shadow seems distant Like it wants nothing to do with me Hope feels like a word I cannot understand Happiness seems like someone else’s story Even love feels distant Like it was made for everyone but me I scream inside But no one hears I am alone Even among people Trapped in myself Watching the world move while I stay still I wish I could disappear I wish I could feel nothing Release this weight I carry every day I look in the mirror And all I see is someone who cannot love themselves But still, I am here Alone Broken Tired I hate my life And sometimes, that’s all I feel -Lokanata, 10 March 2026