I had you...

i had you at the beginning, you knew Stan and my family, you understood how hard my past was on my health, you said you'd never leave me, I was young, so I didn't think to make you swear on your whole being. I was always talking about you being my best friend, no one could replace you even at the very end. I had you at the beginning of middle school, I knew you were a fool, you rushed into loving me, I took my sweet time... you thought I couldn't see the truth behind your eyes, I acted like I believed all those white lies, all of our late nights I believe we both wished for no lights, our faces were flushed and we always blushed. we thought we could hide that both of us were crushed together. I had you until the age of fourteenth, you had me until the age of seventeen, who knew you'd trade eight years of friendship, for eight months of a relationship, she wouldn't let you preserve our friendship, so I lost the reserve I had in your life easier than if your life was a dinner reservation, my new friend's, you could call them my new salvation. they Don't know Stan, just my new family, they can't grasp the fact of my past, I won't tell lies when I say I'll stay, they'll see it in my eyes.