I forgive you

i forgive you I forgive you for making me feel even lonelier in your absence than in your presence I forgive you for every night I spend alone watching your sleep peacefully I forgive you for making me believe a life after you would not exist and for every night I stared blankly into our bathroom mirror with swollen eyes and a tired soul wondering why I'm not good enough I forgive you for the war you started in my heart I forgive you for every time you battled me even after I threw up a white flag I forgive you for the ocean of salty tears I cried, that had your name scribbled in all over it I forgive you and I forgive myself for the addiction to it all.