i find it easier

over time i just learned to cope silently i crave the feeling of being understood or heard but i hate the idea of opening up its something made a habit over time instead of showing my frustrated,sadness or anything i take it privately to digest it myself i feel its a easier way to do it than have someone not understand me and make me feel dumb or they do not care at all or make fun i prefer the people whom appreciates the days im loud and annoying as well as my silent and down days even though they are the most random I've learned to accept that as a part of me that I'll remove myself from the conflict all together when something upsets me or hurts me i find it easier to try to process my emotions privately than expressing my emotions to others about something i dont even understand