I feel sad like I don't wanna

i've always had no fear, no fear is what my dad taught me but lately everything and myself scare me... ive got anxiety... I see more for myself than sadness just took an anti depressant to quiet down the madness. do I follow the badness or sit alone in the sadness... either way I lose, I shut my eyes tryna snooze but all's I keep thinking is I don't wanna be here, I feel sad.. I've slept for days it's bad.