I fear

I wake up in tears my hands in pain my heart broken he said he loves me but I dont know for sure I cry myself to sleep wondering in my fears hoping my tears will but they never do I fear I am not good enough I fear that I will lose my way I fear that my family will hate me I walk around in fear and tears I try to be happy I try to be ok I try to be my old happy self but nothing seems to work he had cheated and I fear he is doing it again what do I do what can I do I fear I can't do anything my world is crumbling I am stuck i can't leave I fear trapped in my prison cell in a home that I can leave from no friends and no way out