i don't want to leave

I'm a dark cloud waiting for a light that can discrete me from all my sin's. I'm envy, greedy and I have to much wrath.i serve and protect but I think those two things are not enough to make me a better person. I distance myself from getting to know to many people, distance is the only option to save them and me from the darkness and you came. I don't how you understood me or changed me but girl I'm obliged that you came. I know love is a big word for you to handle or i was thinking to deep. I know I'm not your type or I'm thinking to deep again. all I want to say is I don't want to leave your life and for you to not leave mine.if you leave I'm going to be broken or even worse kill myself , so please don't leave .