I Don't Want To Be Numb

Looking back on all my flying high days and nights... Those were times,good and bad..yet It all were so sad..I can't go back.. nothing but being trash.. Almost a year sober from it all, baby you don't want me like that..I won't ever be true if addiction is in use.I need a different detour another route.If I finish school I can take theater and photography and still feel at peace and free...Meet my grandbabies,hug my now adult kids and hear that they are proud of me..Could you stand by me as I adapt to this new change..I will love you always..please love stay..Can we dance and stop this blame hate game .I don't want fame ,make my own dough..How can I earn your trust when fear runs the show? Please look at me with loving eyes..Do you really love me? I need to know..